A life spent making mistakes is not only honorable but more useful than a life spent doing nothing.
George Bernard Shaw

Ok dear friends this quote really gives me hope.  I got up this morning and knew it was time to write again.  I can't do it on schedule or if I feel like I have to.  So it happens when the spirit moves me.  I have learned so many lessons in my life by doing the wrong thing.  Take for instance what happened to me this morning.  I had to go get a pedicure and it was so painful I kept pulling my foot away from the lady.  She has been giving me a pedicure for years now and always tells me if I came more often it would not hurt so much.  I made a promise to myself today that I would not wait so long to go back again.  But then I say that every time.  Have I finally learned my lesson?  Time will tell.  This is so symbolic of my life.  I only take action when I feel the pain.  There are times when I am a "teabag Christian."  I call on God the most when I am in hot water.  Now this is not to say I don't pray every day, many times a day in fact.  I told you before that I consider myself to be spiritual, but not necessarily religious.  Hum...I feel like I am getting off topic now.  (Ugh! The writing teacher in me is always on duty.  I just want to tell her not to judge this blog and just let me write! It does not have to be perfect.)  I think I have this retirement thing figured out now, after two years.  I am down to tutoring just one student for the next four weeks during the summer.  That is a big drop from tutoring five students and being gone from home five days a week.  I am still at the senior center, but I really do love the opportunity to help the elderly.  In addition, I will continue to sub for the school district next year, but will not be volunteering three hours a week in the classroom  as I did last year.  This schedule is feeling better to me.  I did call the church and volunteer for some small projects that can be done in a few days time.    I need to find out how to spend more time on myself.  In order to make this happen, I am going to try to spend the first twenty minutes after I wake up just sitting still and listening.  I have a serenity corner that has my favorite chair and a fountain. I am going to try really hard to turn off my mind and focus on the silence. Not sure how this is going to work out, but I need to move on and start trying to be more spiritual.  I may be making mistakes in my life, but at least I will not be guilty of doing nothing.