Age is Just a Number, I Think

Age is Just a Number, I Think

In a few months I will turn 65.  There I said it.  I don’t know why I am letting this bother me so much but I am.  It seems like I am feeling more aches and pains as time goes on.  In my mind I think I am younger than my real age.  But when I go to the mailbox, it is full of letters from companies that want me to choose them for my health care needs, or consider their site as my final resting place.  These are things I don’t even want to think about.  I just can’t be old enough to have to make these decisions yet. 

            If you have ever been on the Queen Mary do you remember that in the passenger’s rooms the lights were softer and the mirrors made the ladies look better than they actually did?  I think I would like one of those mirrors in my bathroom, along with softer lighting.   Some days the mirror is kinder to me than others.  When I wake up I see new wrinkles where there were none just the day before.  How could this happen overnight? Should I buy some silk pillowcases?  Does this just happen to me?  What will come next, a wart on my chin and a hair that grows out of it???  I hate this aging process.  But I have a friend who always says that any day above ground is a good day.  I wholeheartedly agree.

            With age comes wisdom, right?  I do remember those younger thinner days of my youth but I would not want to go back there for anything.  I think that for me being 64 is a lot like being 12.  When I turned 12, I was no longer a little girl but I was not a teenager either.  I didn’t know quite how to act.  I feel like that now.  I am not really old but I am not young either.   I guess I just have to take each day as it comes.  If I need to slow down a little then I will just accept it and not feel bad about myself.   Even if I move a little slower at least I am moving.  My food choices are never going to be perfect every day, but I am much more aware of what I put in my mouth.   Getting older is going to take some time for me to adjust to.  I am going to have to keep in mind what my friend says.  Any day above ground is a good day.